Putting off pounds with Poetry

Okay this is a new year for me as some of you already know.  Im having to make some decisions that will change how I go about my life in general. But here are just two of the most recent decisions.

1) Looking for a new job.  I hate one of my jobs.  Okay hate is strong, despise my job the only thing I do like is the paycheck.  Well I need to get that check from another employer.   This job stresses me the eff out which is not good for my physical or mental health or in dealing social situations.  I seriously wanted to ram my managers head into a glass window last week over a timesheet.  Thats not a good mindset to be in.  I was on the brink of destruction so much last week I actually had to take sick time because I was ill with angry feelings.

2)  I decided to leave the team I was part of on buddyslim.  For several reasons but to put it nicely, it just wasnt for me anymore.  So although I am not part of a specific team I am still part of the buddyslim team.  For all of you who have been there for me with kind words of encouragement, harsh words of truth and vice versa thank you and I hope we continue to support each other.

So now its time for me to really get my big wheels turning!  I am proud that I made it this far in my journey and I want to keep pushing forward.  I’m moving my weigh-ins back to Sundays.  I dont know why but it just seemed to work for me better.  I’m going to start posting my monthly measurements the last Sunday of the month.  I’ve read every single blog I’ve ever written on here and was able to identify at what points I appeared to be stronger and when I wasnt. Now I just need to reinforce the good and weed out the not so good.  I’m considering joining a gym.  Loni’s maybe.  I did enjoy being there working out together yet its across the river, lol.  I did go to one on my side of the river but it wasnt the same.

As far as the job goes, I’m making a few phone calls this morning and putting in some bids at my other job to see if I can pick up work to compensate the income of the other job I want to quit.  This will help until I can permanently work somewhere else.  Oh, for those of you who I asked to pray about the job situation for me, thank you.  Joanie did get the job I wanted you to pray about but due to some new contractual changes I didn’t get her job as expected.   Someone junior to me did but it had to do with office jurisdiction.  I was really hurt, angry, and depressed about it yesterday but today I decided it is what it is but proud Mary needs to keep on rolling!